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It’s that time again, time to face the scale and see if I’ve made any progress. And, well, I guess I made a little headway, but I’m starting to get to that place where this isn’t fun anymore. I feel like I’m working hard but not getting there as fast as I’d like.

  • Weight: 154.8 (69.2% to stretch goal)
  • Change in pounds: -2.8
  • Body Fat: 29.8% (woohoo, out of the 30s)
  • Bust: 36.5″ (-1″)
  • Waist: 32″ (-.5″)
  • Hips: 41″ (-.5″)

I can’t go into where I am emotionally right now, partly because I don’t exactly know myself. I’m in deep water right now, clinging to everything that brings me comfort, but without receiving comfort. I’m sad and scared and hurting and don’t have any healthy outlets. I know I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be, I just wish it didn’t hurt so much.

 

 

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What an interesting two weeks! My precious Radiant One has some serious separation anxiety, so I haven’t gotten to go to the gym during the day for more than two weeks now. In fact, my gym time is down to about four hours a week. It sorta bums me out, but my baby’s needs come first.

Compounding my workout problem is the weather here. It’s nasty. Super humid, raining, “very high” pollen levels as per the news each day. The rain makes my knees hurt something fierce, and the pollen makes going for a run a sneezefest. I know it’s silly to complain, but I’m dealing with some challenges. I’m sure they’ll resolve soon enough!

I lost 3.8 lbs. during the last two weeks. That’s pretty good, given that I haven’t worked out much and have kept my calories about where they were before. But the MOST interesting part is that I’ve lost three pounds in the last three days. I really believe that with the stress of the wedding over, my body was just ready to let it go. Finally!

I forgot what a pain in the butt it is to be where I am. My size 12s are too big, and they look it. But I have three pairs of jeans in a size 10, and they’re all uncomfortably tight. One pair is the same style from Old Navy, purchased on the SAME DAY two years ago, in both a 12 and a 10. How’s that for silly? I can pull the 12s off without unbuttoning them, but barely breathe in the 10s. Oh well, just more motivation to get into 8s, I guess!

  • Current weight: 157.2 (67% to stretch goal)
  • Change in pounds: -3.8
  • Body Fat: 30.8% (-0.8%)
  • Bust 37.5″ (-0.5″))
  • Waist: 32.5″ (-0.5″)
  • Hips: 41.5″ (-0.5″)

I don’t really have a goal for the next two weeks. Ideally, I’d like to be out of the 150s in four weeks. It’s doable, but just barely. We’ll see!

 

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Wowza, what a tough two weeks. New church, bunch of birthdays, lots of cake, crawling and teething, more cake, and a general lack of sleep. There may have been a bit more cake involved, too.

That said, I’m pleased to see a loss at all after a six pound gain. I thought I’d be out of the 160s by now, but no such luck (or effort, really, since I ate so. much. cake). Next time!

  • Current weight: 161.0 (61% to stretch goal)
  • Change in pounds: -1.6
  • Body Fat: 31.6% (-1.1%)
  • Bust 38″ (same)
  • Waist: 33″ (-1″)
  • Hips: 42″ (-1″)

I’m sorta ok with everything here. It’s only by the grace of God that I posted a loss at all during this two week period. I’ve averaged 1700 calories per day and have exchanged some heavy workouts for yoga, so my net loss is tiny, at best. My baby is nursing like mad though, so I’m sure that has something to do with it. All in all, it’s ok. I’m looking for a solid loss this next two weeks, though. It’s time to get back on track!

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Are you singing with me? “Highway to the danger zone. Take a ride into the danger zone.” If not, you weren’t born in the late 70s/early 80s.

I haven’t talked much about my history of an eating disorder because it’s generally a non-issue. I get a little grippy with my thoughts a couple days a year, but I think that’s pretty normal. The Not-So-Casual Observer and I have had some conversation regarding how much I exercise and how much I eat. She thought that my 10 hours of exercise (with no more than two per day) plus 1500-1800 calories (because I’m nursing) was reasonable.

Ahem.

I’m now at a weight where I really need to do more than that for all-around strength and fitness to reach my goal on time. I can’t get the calorie burn I need from just one hour of cardio per day. I need four hours to lift each week, and I’d like to get some yoga and Pilates back into my schedule. Fourteen hours should help, hopefully.

Until now, I’ve been pretty consistent with a 10-11 hour gym week, but I need to bump it up. I’ve lost flexibility because I don’t have time to get to yoga. My powerhouse isn’t as strong as it should be, giving me back pain because my abs aren’t strong enough to carry the load. My hip flexors are holding up, but I really need to get some cross-training in (preferably in the pool for my joints). There’s just a lot to do, and 10 hours a week ain’t cuttin’ it.

Having limitations put on my gym time stresses me out and makes me want to stop eating. That’s not really an option, what with nursing a little one, which drives me back to wanting to work out more. It’s a vicious cycle. It seems natural to me that, when faced with obstacles, one should just work harder and do more to overcome them.

Last night in The Ragamuffin Gospel, a guy was talking about how he’d gone on a drinking binge after seven years of sobriety. He confesses, and the addiction counselor replies, “Relapse spells relief…let’s figure out what you needed relief from and why.”

So here I am…confessing that I’m struggling with obsessive thoughts, wishing I was losing more weight than I am, faster than I should. I’m falling behind my goal line on Sparkpeople, and that never feels good.

I guess I need to figure out what I need relief from, as well as where I’m going in terms of fitness hours, because this is dangerous territory for me. Off to plan!

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Um, wow. The scale says I’m up SIX POUNDS from my 162.something on Wednesday. Now, I realize I’ve eaten restaurant food three times. There was a big birthday in there, some significant stress, and some stuff I’m now too Southern to post, but suffice it to say that six pounds is a huge dent to my self esteem.

I’ve also learned an important lesson: Do not order a 1/2 sheet cake for your 3 year old’s birthday. You will feel compelled to finish it because it was expensive. This is especially true when you can’t pawn huge chunks off on people at Chuck E. Cheese like we managed to do last time. I will say this, it will be finished tomorrow. Given that a 1/2 sheet serves 80 people, I’ll leave you to figure out how much cake we’ve eaten per person in six days. Gag.

I haven’t skipped any workouts, so I don’t believe that this is an actual gain. I should have actually LOST  a pound this week, according to the math. But it’s a bummer.

OK, I’m done whining about it. I’ve got to get myself back to the gym tomorrow after taking today off with a sick little one. Can’t wait to see my numbers fall again!

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  • Current weight: 162.6 (61% to stretch goal)
  • Change in pounds: -6.8
  • Body Fat: 32.7% (-1.5%)

There are no measurements because I couldn’t find the tape measure (something about having four kids, I’m sure it’s in one of their bedrooms). I’d look again today, but we had Chuck E. Cheese for my girl’s birthday, and I’m up two pounds of water weight from all that salt, blech.

Soo… I lost a great deal of weight these last two weeks. I wonder if it’s going to stay that way; two great weeks followed by two blah weeks. I can’t say. All I know is that by the ides of March I should be in the 150’s again, woot!

150 is a mental place for me that’s tough to conquer. It’s what I weighed in high school. The day I broke 150 last time I wept. The day I got under 140 was “wow.” I leveled out at 133 and was pretty content there. This time I’m shooting for 124, just to see how it feels.

I may decide once I get into the 130s that 124 just isn’t for me. I might decide I’d like to go a bit further. The low end of healthy for my height is 105, so I’ve got plenty of room (and let me be clear, I don’t see myself EVER wanting to be below 115 or so). All that’s wishful thinking right now, though, as I’m still in the 160s. Still, I’ll call this two weeks a solid effort and hope that this quick weight loss trend continues!

Since my HRM died, I read about a jillion reviews and decided to try the Polar FT4 monitor and the Wearlink+ strap. I’m pleased with how the strap feels for the most part, but wearing it for yoga is decidedly uncomfortable when you’re doing work on your belly. That wasn’t the case with my T31 strap. Otherwise, I’m finding it comfortable and accurate, and a great purchase!

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So another two weeks have passed, and I suppose I’m ok with making just a little progress. I weighed a full pound less yesterday than I do today, and that makes me absolutely crazy. I ate restaurant food four times in the last two weeks, and that certainly doesn’t help the weight loss efforts!

  • Current weight: 169.4 (55% to stretch goal)
  • Change in pounds: -2.4
  • Bust 38″ (-1″)
  • Waist: 34″ (-0.5″)
  • Hips: 43″ (-1″)
  • Body Fat: 34.2% (-1.6%)

My beloved heart rate monitor gave up the ghost this week. *cry* I bought it after my Joyful One was born, and it’s served me well 5-6 days a week, often twice a day, for all this time. RIP, HRM. A new one has been ordered, will report on it after I’ve had a bit of time to use it.

All in all, an ok two weeks.

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